157?

Ate a couple bites of cucumber and a fiber one bar today. 100 calories? I don't know and I don't care. I am hungry but I don't have any cravings for anything. I cried last night. I don't know what happened. I just broke down. I read stories of girls who got out of their eating disorders and it just made me feel even more hopeless. But boyfriend was there for me and he held me and let me cry and i was covered in snot and I felt a lot better today. I think finally admitting the helplessness that I feel to someone helped me in some way. Now if only I could fix that. : /

I'm just so apathetic right now.

So weak.

Nothing inside me.

So many stairs, so many classes.

It's hard.