160

Been running every day, eating minimally, weight's not dropping.
Fuck my life.

Not to mention I purged today after dinner and my boyfriend totally caught me so we got into a fight, he's all mad.

But it's more that he's upset--he's afraid I'll die.
I understand...but I can't change it either. I'd much rather just starve myself but I get the compulsion. When I'm not terrified of food I binge and purge. I hate it. He doesn't understand.