Phew -- 161

Ok good. Water weight. Gotta be at work in three hours. HA! x) Stayin awake to burn cals w00t.

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I am so confused. Everytime I leave the bathroom with a nosebleed or lie about having eaten already a part of me dies because I know I'm only hurting those around me.

But when I pause for a moment to entertain the thought of living normally, it seems so ludicrous.

How could I ever be normal? Eat normally? Be fat? Happy?

I don't understand people. How can they NOT focus on what they eat? They have it so easy--they just live day to day. Fuck them.

My teeth and hair are falling out and you're eating a sandwich.

RUDE.

Arg it's so comical but so frustrating at the same time.