ssris

so i'm on antidepressants. why aren't they working? i just feel worse.

i sent an email to my ex boyfriend today saying that i had something to tell him. i'm finally going to tell him i was raped, and that's why i cheated. i lashed out. i didn't know what else to do.

i feel so bad about it. so i sent him an email asking him to find it in his heart to meet up with him. i don't want to interrupt his life, but I need to tell him to get closure. it's making me miserable keeping this secret.

maybe one day it will work out for us. i know it's not going to be now because he's with someone else but maybe, just maybe, one day.