172

I guess my scale is off. Weighed myself digitally today and I'm 172. Not gonna let it stop me though.

Still can't stop. I just have to bleach myself. Get rid of all this nastiness on my body. Remove it forever. Disappear.

I can't take it.

The only thing I can control is what does or does not go in my mouth.
It's the only thing I can take.

Fuck.

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As a positive note, the boy I met is so flipping gorgeous I can't take it. And so sexy. He purrs into my ear and kisses my neck and holds me when I sleep. I think I could fall in love with him one day.

Only time will tell. (but I'm calling this one early)

It's just a shame things are so hazy with my real boyfriend at the moment. What to do. Advice?