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Looked in the mirror today and turned to the sides. Can see my hipbones. Thank jebus they're finally coming back. I'm just so panicked at having all this stuff on me. I hate it.

After three days of minimal eating I've lost any specific cravings. I just get a gnawing feeling of hunger sometimes but it's not like OMG need chocolate now!

I'm glad I didn't buy snack foods the other day.

I spend all my time at the grocery wandering up and down the aisles looking at all the things I can never buy for myself : (

I know I never will. Bleh...

Boyfriend ran his hands over me today and said in a concerned tone: "Baby...I can feel your ribs." and looked at me with his brown eyes, so concerned. My heart jumped in happiness but I also hate that it hurts him. Whyyyy am I hurting people?

I need to get out of this negative mindset.