150.5

.5 lb loss, which is ok considering the fact that I ate epic carbs last night. I meant to buy some laxatives at the store but the boyfriend was watching me like a hawk. I'm going through some really weird mood changes. For about three weeks my mood was great, and I didn't even care that much that I wasn't losing. Now, I have been having panic attacks nearly every day, and not even when I'm weighing. I haven't purged but I'm already thinking about it, after lunch today. Sad that I'm looking forward to it.

Or nothing at all...that'd be nice. But I'm feeling a b/p coming on...it's been awhile. I don't want to give in, but...



we'll see.