diet

"I'd offer her one but I know she doesn't want it."
"What's that supposed to mean?"
Long pause.
"I just know you're really good about watching what you eat."


FUCK YOU.

170

Ok I feel a little better.

It's kind of weird to think that a month and a half ago I was excited to get under the 180 mark : /

Now I flip out if I'm over 170. It's good, though. 165 next, should have it by next week if I stay under 500 cals, according to losertown.com.
I love that thing. It tells you how much you will weigh (mathematically speaking, not accounting for variables) if you eat a certain amt of calories a day, based on your starting weight, your height, age, and sex.

According to that I'll be 120 by Dec. 3 if I stay on track. I'm determined. After this last week of eating like shite I'm all for it. Besides hanging out with Berto so much helps me not eat--I told him about my ED so if he sees me eating he'll think I'm nuts. Haha.

Whaaaatever.


I am nuts I guess but we shall see.
I'm going to go do some exercise now to burn off the orange I ate and the coffee with milk i'll be sipping all day.

171?

Ugh get back on track you stupid fucking whore.

169

Yesss back under 170, even though I ate mexican food yesterday at Berto's.



Time to drink more coffee.

Keep going down, it's the only thing worthwhile.

173

El streso de no dormiendo me comienza a comer.
No mas.

Intake
-Ham sammich 320
-Mocha Latte - 300
-Hot chocolate - 300
-Madeleine - 70
-Mango Strips - 60
-Naked Juice - 130

1160

FUCK.

169

I'm officially under the 170 line consistently for three days. Yess.

Going down down down down down.
Been starving for about a week, decided to kick-start my metabolism with some dessert and dip at Friday's, shared with mi solo compadre. I heart him.

Ate a lean turkey and ham sandwich today and had a Pepsi and a Dr. Pepper.

So got some food groups in me and some much-needed carbs.

Back to real life tomorrow though--work from 7-3:30 <3 No food! Yay! Don't have to be around it, don't have to see it, hear it. It's nice.

Fucked Berto the other night <3 Glorious.
He prefers giving rather than receiving if you catch my drift.

Oh goodness the luck that I have.

Once I'm thin I'll probably give in more but for now he is a bit rough and yeah.
I mean I like it, I just don't want permanent injury x)

Been slacking on exercise and relying solely on starvation to knock off the pounds as usual. But need to kick-start with the exercise if I'm going to make my goals. 165 by the ninth!

Miu

170!

Well I was at 168 this morning but since I've had water and stuff today I'm 170. True weight in the morning? Jeez I hope so.

Not eating is scarily easy. As long as I stay busy and with people I don't eat.

I love it.

Told mexi about my ed last night after we had a rollickin' good fuck which probs burned some cals. Either way my hips are sore from it. ; )

I love that my job is essentially walking around all day.
Keeps the brain busy and the time moving by, and the body burning.

Time for stretches and sleep so I can go work again in a few hours ; )

Miu