159

My weight is still high but my body is changing.
Thank goodness. I measured today, and I'm smaller. I've also started having baby food as my meals. For example, for breakfast I'll have maybe a banana or some fruit or something, then for lunch I'll have a small pot of some sort of baby food. The pots are 50-100 calories so I can have one or two without freaking out. The fruit ones taste really good, haven't tried veggie ones, but I hear they are bland. It's a great way to keep my calories under control while still getting the vitamins and stuff I need and this way I feel less guilty and full after I eat. Plus, if for some reason I feel like I have to purge, baby food is super super soft and blended so it won't hurt me too bad. There aren't preservatives, additives, hormones, or antibiotics in organic baby food and it's only 1.00 for a pack with two pots in it. The jars are even cheaper at about .34-.65 depending on the type.

Just to mix it up I supplemented this dinner with some rice cakes, took a small bite of the peach-mango baby food then a bite of mini rice-cake, and so forth. And of course tons of water.

I'd feel perfect except this morning I had to eat cos we popped over to my buddy travis' apartment so I didn't really have a choice. Luckily I just picked at some pizza topping since they were all having waffles with syrup and butter and eggs. -dies-


Guess I'll start up with an intake journal again, just to make me feel guilty! Haha.

B: Toppings off of some pizza (better than a waffle -gag-) idk, - 230?
L: Banana - 90
S: 1/2 Banana - 45
D: 1 Pot peach mango baby food and mini rice cakes - 120

Total: 485 (Death)

Tomorrow's goal: 300-400

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Non-ED News:

Well the boy and I had our first legitimately good day today, all day. Cheerful, loving, cuddling, hugging, good times. Hopefully tonight will go smoothly; I hope I didn't just curse myself.

Sigh.