New Scale

Bought a new scale.

I am 180, meaning I've lost 4lb in three days.

I'm going to add a pound to that just in case of water weight, but I haven't been dehydrated.

So that means I'm down 3 lb in three days.

I am not sure when anorexia moved back in. I thought I was done with this. When I was younger. When I was a kid.

Then bulimia found me. Made me into this huge nasty thing that I am now.

Now anorexia is back with a vengeance. Food terrifies me. I'm eating carrot sticks right now and I have only had two. I have to force myself to eat them.

What happened?

I just want to be normal.

Miu